The other day and a different answer

I was asked the other day by a new friend of mine and brother in Christ if there were any pieces of Scripture that have been a big part of my journey over the past 6 months. To my surprise I could not think of one right off hand. I mean I know ther were Scriptures that when I heard or read them they spoke loud and clear to me but for some reason it took a few minutes of really thinking. As I pondered at this suprise of my lack of memory I realized that yes, there were Scriptures that I have held to such as Ephesians 3:20-21which says Ephesians Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever.”  but that was not necessarily what I had been holding on to so tightly. See through the past 6 months my love for the Lord has grown alot. Yes, Scripture has been a big part of it but what I have begun to realize is that the things He used most to give me peace, comfort, and hope were songs, words of affirmation, prayer, and ultimately His Holy Spirit Who comes to dwell in all who believe Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior and surrender their lives to Him. What I learned and continue to learn is that He is all I need. He satifies all of my desires. His Word (don’t get me wrong!) is good but in those 6 months His presence was what He allowed me to experience. What played the biggest  part was having my Best Friend, Daddy, and Sovereign Lord in the most tangible way I have ever experienced. Talking with Him and allowing Him to speak over me. That is what I held to. It was interesting coming to this conclusion. The Lord teaches us different things at dfferent times. I guess He wanted to teach me to trust Him and rest in the fullness of Him and He is continuing to teach that to me. He is faithful and persistent!   

  

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And then I praised God

It is funny how life can be so busy. We forget some of the most important things. I am more stressed than I have ever been and forgot to praise God that it has been 6 months since the diagnosis of my tumor. I’ve been freaking out all day because I just want to get everything figured out for graduation in May. I have papers, tests, grades to keep up, apartment to clean, car to clean, family and friends to see, alone time, and let’s be honest I am an extravert therefore I need people around so that I get energy. Locking myself away can only hinder me after too much time.

I was talking with my mom on the phone saying how many hours I need to take in the spring and over the Christmas/winter and Spring breaks. As I explain in my frustration and tired attitude Mom reminds me of what today is, the 22nd. See the 22nd is always a great day. The 22nd is the anniversary of my diagnosis. Today is the 6 month anniversary of when I found out I had a brain tumor. That is a big deal! I got so caught up in longing to finish college on time that I did not even think that I am not (according to science) supposed to be able to do college. I forgot to be thankful for life today. In May 2013 I didn’t know if I was going to see June lol! Who am I to worry about May 2014 or any day in between? The Lord has a fun way of reminding us not to worry. Praise God!

Matthew 6:34
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Back at DBU! Senior year! I had no idea!

Wow it is my senior year of college and can I just say I am so excited to see what is ahead?! I have been so blessed to be back at my second home Dallas Baptist University. I have been blessed with great roommates/appartment-mates this year who not only love the Lord but are just super fun people to chill with! I love all my classes and teachers. I am blown away at the way God placed me in the perfect classes for not only my knowledge of a job but my growth in Him.

What I really came on here to write about today is how crazy word travels and how thankful I am once again for the power of prayer.

1. I met a girl this week at school who right after learning my name asked if I had been sick and then proceeded to tell me that she had been praying for me. She didn’t even know me and yet was praying! WOW!

2. Went to a Village Church home group only to find out that the leaders of the group had heard of me and had been praying for me.

I know often times we pray for those we have never met but we never truly realize the impact it has. Well let me tell you! Not only does it have impact because you are battling on their behalf but also it is extremely encouraging and life-giving if they find out. So don’t stop lifting the Body Of Christ up! It is powerful!

The Power of Prayer

Throughout this whole journey with my tumor I have learned so much about the power of prayer. Whether it was learned through prayer of my health or prayer on behalf of others. I have learned to find it so interesting that we are shocked when our prayers are answered. I mean really surprised as if Jesus didn’t say in John 14:13-14 “13 Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.14 If you ask me[a] anything in my name, I will do it.” If we really believe this then I truly believe we will see the Lord answer more of our prayers. Does this mean the answer will always be what we want? No. But it sure means that we will see a lot more of the Lord’s work accomplished among us.

Soli Deo Gloria!

Leah Kate

II Chronicles 7:14

“if my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land.”

Power of His testimony

I am always so blown away when people hear about the miracle of my journey. See for me, this is life, therefore sometimes I forget how much of a miracle this whole thing is. Today I ran into one of my brothers in Christ who had not heard what was going on. It was so encouraging to see what the Lord is doing in his life and then the Lord allowing me to share the Lord’s testimony through me was awesome. My friend reminded me the importance of sharing with those around me and those I come in contact with because this whole thing is so completely of the Lord and He gives us testimonies for the purpose of sharing Him with others and bringing glory to His name!

I am so thankful for that reminder! Soli Deo Gloria!!!!!

I have to write about this one….

I am an aunt of 8 little ones, 4 of which live next door to me. I absolutely love it! They are the coolest bunch of kids you could ever meet! They all are very smart, athletic, silly, sweet, and just stinking adorable! I was not worried if they found out about my brain tumor because I knew most of them wouldn’t exactly comprehend it because of how old they are.

My oldest nephew is 7. We had to explain it to him and to my surprise he understood it very well and introduced me to his friend as “This is my Aunt Lolly! She has a brain tumor and had surgery!”. He said it as if I was the coolest thing since double sided tape lol. My niece Melody is 5 and she doesn’t really understand. Today my 4 year old nephew Joshua (aka Gator) asked me what a tumor is. I found it easier to explain it to him by telling him that there was a small ball inside my head. I think he understood after that. I am not that sure because his attention span is that of a 4 year old. hahaha

Amazing People and Some Needed Thanks!

I wanted to write a little bit about the people that have been huge blessings through my journey so far.

Dad and Mom– They have had to patiently watch me handle all of this. Mom drove me 2 hours away to get testing done. She was with me when I got the news and has not left my side. Knowing that I have driving restrictions until my next MRI she has made every effort to make sure my life is normal and I can do whatever opportunities come my way. She also makes sure I am eating good cancer preventing foods. She is my cheerleader! Dad has spent time driving back and forth from Austin. He has provided me with encouragement and the means to get the medical help I need. If it were not for him I would have never gone to Temple to get testing done in the first place. I love my parents! Thank you!

My 5 wonderful siblings-I love you guys! You have brought so much joy and comfort to me the past 21 years of my life but especially the past month. I have been amazed at how much you all just jumped right in to carry me and to make sure Mom and Dad were ok. I love you all so very much! Thank you!

Aunt Paula and Uncle Lee-You both have dealt with brain stuff way more than I have. Thank you for checking on my family. Thank you for your readiness to come here at anytime. Thank you for encouraging words and phone calls. Uncle Lee thank you for being able to answer questions about brain surgery/staple removing that I was not sure about. I love you both so much! Thank you!

Jordan Garner– Thank you for setting your life aside and loving me when I needed it the most! Thank you for comforting me and just being a friend to get my mind off everything! Thank you for sitting at the hospital when it was boring. Knowing that you were with me from the night before surgery until hours after surgery is amazing. Thank you!

Jake Mohon– Thank you for also setting your life aside and allowing me to stop being strong and just release my fears for 5 minutes. Thank you for my ever-so  cherished bracelet that reminds me that I am loved and that people are praying for me. Thank you for loving my family and for sitting with me at the hospital when you had to have been so bored. Thank you for my giant dog Jefrey! I love him! Thank you for always reminding Whose hands I am in, Who this is about, and that He is sovereign over all. Thank you.

Merlinda Chelette-Who would have thought that this sweet lady I was asked to pray healing for would now be praying for me?! Thank you for walking with me in all of this. Thank you for my letter and book. Thank you for wonderful and comforting Facebook conversations. Thank you for being steps ahead of me so that I can ask you questions. Thank you!

Davis Family and Foster Family-Thank you for being here since I was like 5 years old. Thank you that I don’t even have to ask for you all to be here for me and my family because you always are and always will be! Thank you!

I am super blessed to have so many wonderful people to do life with! Thank you all so much!

A friend loves at all times……..and I post in doubles sorry

Take a moment and think of what a friend is to you? In my opinion a real friend is (insert description here).

I realize everyone probably thinks I answer this question with Jesus but hey although He is the ultimate bestie that’s not my answer. We know He is the ultimate bestie. He is Jesus! He is perfect!

See as kids it seemed like a real friend is the person you spent all your time with. You know the one you have inside jokes with and finish not just each other’s sentences but thoughts too! Oh and you are so completely telepathic (if that’s even a thing). Don’t get me wrong my life long best friend that I totally had telepathy with and did everything with is still my longest best friend. She is happily married to an amazing man and I am so happy he is her life long best friend! They are great! She and I are still besties and will always be! I have no doubt!

Friendship in Jr. High and High school you learn is spread between a few friends. They also share this telepathy with you and you do crushes together, these are the group of girls you travel to the restroom with because you know we go in groups, and also just the girls you hangout with. Yes, I do still have a few very good friends from those years as well! One, who is now married, one in a relationship, and another who lives a few hours away but we all still keep in touch.

College introduced what a real friend is though. See the Lord showed me in college that just like His word says in Proverbs 17:17, a friend really does love at all times. Though thick and thin! Through laughter and tears. Through hugs and distance. A real friend loves you when you don’t deserve to be loved. Even when you reject that love a real friend continues to love. They are the person that though you may not see them much you still consider them a friend. They are the person that when times get  rough and scary you talk to them. They hold you and tell you its ok. They are the ones who cry with you. The ones that when you feel like you have to be strong around everyone else they see straight through you and let you be weak. They tend to frequently be used by Jesus in your life.

See a real friend is the person you call when you find out you have a brain tumor because you know you will need to talk for at least 20 minutes with your family members because you need time to explain and its ok to only talk to your friend for a few minutes before seeing the next doctor because you just need to talk to someone and then explain more later. The friend that when you text and say I need to talk and they ask if it can wait cause they had a hard day, you are able to say no I really need to talk now. They are the ones who are like family but not that close.

A real friend is the person who you are willing to drop what you are doing just to help them be silly. The friend that you are willing to get woke up by text and/or phone call at 4 a.m. because they need to talk or stay up with them until 4a.m. because of fun. They are the people that tend to come in and out of seasons in life but you know that they are purposed by God for this time. They are a lot like family yet different.

See in my college friendships I have seen that Proverbs 17:17, “A friend loves at all times,
and a brother is born for adversity.”

and

Romans 12:10-13

Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good. 10 Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor. 11 Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit,[g] serve the Lord. 12 Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. 13 Contribute to the needs of the saints and seek to show hospitality.

are played out.

See although my friends growing up showed this too, I have been able to see it so much clearer in college. Most likely because life is a little more crazy and more stuff happens in college than when you are younger.

No matter where life takes me I have the memories of these amazing people who are constantly there for me and make me stand in awe of the Lord knowing that He is even more so there for me. See I know most likely I won’t be besties with these people forever cause life happens. We get lead different ways and that is a beautiful thing.  But I will always know that they are there for me and I am there for them. I guarantee in 30 years I would still be there for them if they randomly showed up at my door. And Lord willing that are paths cross again after we have gone separate ways then how cool! But for now I am greatful for all I have learned through these wonderful people I get to call my friends.

I guess my point is that friendship is something that God has blessed us with and we should always cherish it no matter how rough it can get. Christ calls us to live in community with one another, bearing each others burdens and that is exactly what friendship provides.

Ephesians 4:2-7

2 with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, 3 eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.4 There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to the one hope that belongs to your call—5 one Lord, one faith, one baptism,6 one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.7 But grace was given to each one of us according to the measure of Christ’s gift.

Leah

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A Few Words Of The year

It seems like there have been a few different words that have become a theme in my life. One started about a year ago. The word “sovereign“. God lead me this past year to the Village Church in Dallas. Sovereign is a word that I feel like is used a lot there. Whether the actual word is used or just a description/story that if summed up in one word it would be sovereign. Not only that but I my friend Jake, who all this year (whether he knew it or not) always seemed to remind me that no matter what God is sovereign.

The same friend along with Matt Chandler through his book “The Explicit Gospel” taught me about the phrase “Soli Deo Gloria“. It means “glory to God alone”. At first it was just a really cool Latin phrase that yes, had meaning but not like it does now.  The more I dwelt upon the phrase and the more I grew in my walk with the Lord this year the more this phrase became real and close to my heart. Soli Deo Gloria, Soli Deo Gloria, Soli Deo Gloria………. every time I say it, it gets rooted deeper in my heart. As I grew this year, each moment that went by this phrase ringed in my heart. It is really true. No matter what happens, whether I have friends and family or not, no matter what grades I make, no matter what I do, my very breath, all of me, and all of life itself is to ring Soli Deo Gloria. My whole life! It’s purpose is Soli Deo Gloria! 

The next phrase I actually learned last week. The phrase is Deo Volente. It means “Lord willing”. I leaned it from my friend Matt Hamilton. He is the youth pastor at my church in Weatherford.  How much this whole thing with my head has made me realize that everything I plan and dream of is honestly Deo Volente. All of it! My every second of life. I’ll go to the store………… Deo Volente. I’ll see my friends tomorrow…………..Deo Volente. I’ll lie down in my bed and sleep tonight ………….Deo Volente. I’ll continue to breathe ……………….Deo Volente. 

Everything I do will be done Lord willing! It’s quite wonderful and stress relieving when life is seen that way. Does that mean we quit trying because   “Deo Volente” it will happen regardless? By no means!!!! The Lord uses us to accomplish His will. Trust me you want Him to use you! Can He make things happen on His own? Of course! He is God! But is it incredibly glorifying to Him to use His children? So much!

The last phrase I learned May 18th, 2013. My friend Amanda gave me a book by Elisabeth Elliot. In the first few pages she uses the phrase “Negligent Trust”. It means to trust God despite reason. Negligence is ignoring human reason. Legitimately the definition is “failure to exercise the care toward others which a reasonable or prudent person would do in the circumstances”. In life we have to have a “negligent trust” in God. We have to look at circumstances that seem impossible and say, “yes humanly this cannot be done but God can do this!” God defies human reason! If you didn’t already know, He is all-powerful! He raises the dead to life. He turns water to wine. Heals the sick. He even can change someone’s eternal destination! So ya, He Himself defies reason. Side Note: Love defies reason. God is love. Therefore, God defies reason.

So there we go with my post of the day! Jesus is really cool! You should definitely get to know Him! He will change your life! I know He has changed mine! Soli Deo Gloria!

Until next time, Doe Volente!

Leah

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Room For Both

It is funny to look back and see all that the Lord was doing to prepare me for my new journey. From countless moments of Him teaching me to trust Him, reminding me that He is sovereign above all, and also causing me to see how He is so elaborate. It is also funny calling this my “new journey”. Reason one because it is God’s and reason two because the doctor said I have probably had this tumor my how life. I guess it’s my “now known journey”.

It has been interesting seeing the reactions from my family and friends. The reaction spectrum is huge. I get reactions from “huh that makes sense”, “Man girl I am so sorry”, “Leah I don’t know what to say”, “I just don’t understand”, “I wish I lived closer so I could be there”, “Oh praise God its just a brain tumor we thought worse” to “………tear………tear………hug…………tear…………tear”

People ask how I am handling everything and honestly I am ok. I am in God’s hands. Sometimes I question if I really understand what is going on since I am so ok. Maybe I am taking it too lightly or too seriously. Then I remember Who this whole thing is actually about and remember that it is for His glory and that I really am ok.

I like being reminded that God is a God Who heals but also allows. See some how in His sovereignty there is room for both struggle and healing. I know that doesn’t sit right with many. God does say in John 14:13-14 “Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask me[a] anything in my name, I will do it.” 

He also says in Romans 8:26-28 “Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for wordsAnd he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because[a] the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.  And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good,[b] for those who are called according to his purpose.” 

But also in John 9 we see that a man was born blind just so that Christ’s power could be revealed in Christ healing the man.

Therefore, yes we serve a God of healing but also a God who allows things for a time so that His glory may be revealed. It sounds so contradictory I know, but somehow there is room for this: for God to desire His children no pain and for God to allow His children to suffer. Bottom line is, God is God and we are not. He causes the sun to rise in the morning and to set at night. He created the universe from nothing. We serve a God whose mere words are so powerful that they bring life forth. My God is sovereign! He is elaborate! He holds me in His hands and speaks sweetly over me. He created me to bring Him glory and glory I will bring. I am thankful that He joyfully receives the little I bring to Him as glory. He deserves so much more!