The other day and a different answer

I was asked the other day by a new friend of mine and brother in Christ if there were any pieces of Scripture that have been a big part of my journey over the past 6 months. To my surprise I could not think of one right off hand. I mean I know ther were Scriptures that when I heard or read them they spoke loud and clear to me but for some reason it took a few minutes of really thinking. As I pondered at this suprise of my lack of memory I realized that yes, there were Scriptures that I have held to such as Ephesians 3:20-21which says Ephesians Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever.”  but that was not necessarily what I had been holding on to so tightly. See through the past 6 months my love for the Lord has grown alot. Yes, Scripture has been a big part of it but what I have begun to realize is that the things He used most to give me peace, comfort, and hope were songs, words of affirmation, prayer, and ultimately His Holy Spirit Who comes to dwell in all who believe Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior and surrender their lives to Him. What I learned and continue to learn is that He is all I need. He satifies all of my desires. His Word (don’t get me wrong!) is good but in those 6 months His presence was what He allowed me to experience. What played the biggest  part was having my Best Friend, Daddy, and Sovereign Lord in the most tangible way I have ever experienced. Talking with Him and allowing Him to speak over me. That is what I held to. It was interesting coming to this conclusion. The Lord teaches us different things at dfferent times. I guess He wanted to teach me to trust Him and rest in the fullness of Him and He is continuing to teach that to me. He is faithful and persistent!   

  

And then I praised God

It is funny how life can be so busy. We forget some of the most important things. I am more stressed than I have ever been and forgot to praise God that it has been 6 months since the diagnosis of my tumor. I’ve been freaking out all day because I just want to get everything figured out for graduation in May. I have papers, tests, grades to keep up, apartment to clean, car to clean, family and friends to see, alone time, and let’s be honest I am an extravert therefore I need people around so that I get energy. Locking myself away can only hinder me after too much time.

I was talking with my mom on the phone saying how many hours I need to take in the spring and over the Christmas/winter and Spring breaks. As I explain in my frustration and tired attitude Mom reminds me of what today is, the 22nd. See the 22nd is always a great day. The 22nd is the anniversary of my diagnosis. Today is the 6 month anniversary of when I found out I had a brain tumor. That is a big deal! I got so caught up in longing to finish college on time that I did not even think that I am not (according to science) supposed to be able to do college. I forgot to be thankful for life today. In May 2013 I didn’t know if I was going to see June lol! Who am I to worry about May 2014 or any day in between? The Lord has a fun way of reminding us not to worry. Praise God!

Matthew 6:34
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.