I have to write about this one….

I am an aunt of 8 little ones, 4 of which live next door to me. I absolutely love it! They are the coolest bunch of kids you could ever meet! They all are very smart, athletic, silly, sweet, and just stinking adorable! I was not worried if they found out about my brain tumor because I knew most of them wouldn’t exactly comprehend it because of how old they are.

My oldest nephew is 7. We had to explain it to him and to my surprise he understood it very well and introduced me to his friend as “This is my Aunt Lolly! She has a brain tumor and had surgery!”. He said it as if I was the coolest thing since double sided tape lol. My niece Melody is 5 and she doesn’t really understand. Today my 4 year old nephew Joshua (aka Gator) asked me what a tumor is. I found it easier to explain it to him by telling him that there was a small ball inside my head. I think he understood after that. I am not that sure because his attention span is that of a 4 year old. hahaha

Amazing People and Some Needed Thanks!

I wanted to write a little bit about the people that have been huge blessings through my journey so far.

Dad and Mom– They have had to patiently watch me handle all of this. Mom drove me 2 hours away to get testing done. She was with me when I got the news and has not left my side. Knowing that I have driving restrictions until my next MRI she has made every effort to make sure my life is normal and I can do whatever opportunities come my way. She also makes sure I am eating good cancer preventing foods. She is my cheerleader! Dad has spent time driving back and forth from Austin. He has provided me with encouragement and the means to get the medical help I need. If it were not for him I would have never gone to Temple to get testing done in the first place. I love my parents! Thank you!

My 5 wonderful siblings-I love you guys! You have brought so much joy and comfort to me the past 21 years of my life but especially the past month. I have been amazed at how much you all just jumped right in to carry me and to make sure Mom and Dad were ok. I love you all so very much! Thank you!

Aunt Paula and Uncle Lee-You both have dealt with brain stuff way more than I have. Thank you for checking on my family. Thank you for your readiness to come here at anytime. Thank you for encouraging words and phone calls. Uncle Lee thank you for being able to answer questions about brain surgery/staple removing that I was not sure about. I love you both so much! Thank you!

Jordan Garner– Thank you for setting your life aside and loving me when I needed it the most! Thank you for comforting me and just being a friend to get my mind off everything! Thank you for sitting at the hospital when it was boring. Knowing that you were with me from the night before surgery until hours after surgery is amazing. Thank you!

Jake Mohon– Thank you for also setting your life aside and allowing me to stop being strong and just release my fears for 5 minutes. Thank you for my ever-so  cherished bracelet that reminds me that I am loved and that people are praying for me. Thank you for loving my family and for sitting with me at the hospital when you had to have been so bored. Thank you for my giant dog Jefrey! I love him! Thank you for always reminding Whose hands I am in, Who this is about, and that He is sovereign over all. Thank you.

Merlinda Chelette-Who would have thought that this sweet lady I was asked to pray healing for would now be praying for me?! Thank you for walking with me in all of this. Thank you for my letter and book. Thank you for wonderful and comforting Facebook conversations. Thank you for being steps ahead of me so that I can ask you questions. Thank you!

Davis Family and Foster Family-Thank you for being here since I was like 5 years old. Thank you that I don’t even have to ask for you all to be here for me and my family because you always are and always will be! Thank you!

I am super blessed to have so many wonderful people to do life with! Thank you all so much!

A friend loves at all times……..and I post in doubles sorry

Take a moment and think of what a friend is to you? In my opinion a real friend is (insert description here).

I realize everyone probably thinks I answer this question with Jesus but hey although He is the ultimate bestie that’s not my answer. We know He is the ultimate bestie. He is Jesus! He is perfect!

See as kids it seemed like a real friend is the person you spent all your time with. You know the one you have inside jokes with and finish not just each other’s sentences but thoughts too! Oh and you are so completely telepathic (if that’s even a thing). Don’t get me wrong my life long best friend that I totally had telepathy with and did everything with is still my longest best friend. She is happily married to an amazing man and I am so happy he is her life long best friend! They are great! She and I are still besties and will always be! I have no doubt!

Friendship in Jr. High and High school you learn is spread between a few friends. They also share this telepathy with you and you do crushes together, these are the group of girls you travel to the restroom with because you know we go in groups, and also just the girls you hangout with. Yes, I do still have a few very good friends from those years as well! One, who is now married, one in a relationship, and another who lives a few hours away but we all still keep in touch.

College introduced what a real friend is though. See the Lord showed me in college that just like His word says in Proverbs 17:17, a friend really does love at all times. Though thick and thin! Through laughter and tears. Through hugs and distance. A real friend loves you when you don’t deserve to be loved. Even when you reject that love a real friend continues to love. They are the person that though you may not see them much you still consider them a friend. They are the person that when times get  rough and scary you talk to them. They hold you and tell you its ok. They are the ones who cry with you. The ones that when you feel like you have to be strong around everyone else they see straight through you and let you be weak. They tend to frequently be used by Jesus in your life.

See a real friend is the person you call when you find out you have a brain tumor because you know you will need to talk for at least 20 minutes with your family members because you need time to explain and its ok to only talk to your friend for a few minutes before seeing the next doctor because you just need to talk to someone and then explain more later. The friend that when you text and say I need to talk and they ask if it can wait cause they had a hard day, you are able to say no I really need to talk now. They are the ones who are like family but not that close.

A real friend is the person who you are willing to drop what you are doing just to help them be silly. The friend that you are willing to get woke up by text and/or phone call at 4 a.m. because they need to talk or stay up with them until 4a.m. because of fun. They are the people that tend to come in and out of seasons in life but you know that they are purposed by God for this time. They are a lot like family yet different.

See in my college friendships I have seen that Proverbs 17:17, “A friend loves at all times,
and a brother is born for adversity.”


Romans 12:10-13

Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good. 10 Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor. 11 Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit,[g] serve the Lord. 12 Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. 13 Contribute to the needs of the saints and seek to show hospitality.

are played out.

See although my friends growing up showed this too, I have been able to see it so much clearer in college. Most likely because life is a little more crazy and more stuff happens in college than when you are younger.

No matter where life takes me I have the memories of these amazing people who are constantly there for me and make me stand in awe of the Lord knowing that He is even more so there for me. See I know most likely I won’t be besties with these people forever cause life happens. We get lead different ways and that is a beautiful thing.  But I will always know that they are there for me and I am there for them. I guarantee in 30 years I would still be there for them if they randomly showed up at my door. And Lord willing that are paths cross again after we have gone separate ways then how cool! But for now I am greatful for all I have learned through these wonderful people I get to call my friends.

I guess my point is that friendship is something that God has blessed us with and we should always cherish it no matter how rough it can get. Christ calls us to live in community with one another, bearing each others burdens and that is exactly what friendship provides.

Ephesians 4:2-7

2 with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, 3 eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.4 There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to the one hope that belongs to your call—5 one Lord, one faith, one baptism,6 one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.7 But grace was given to each one of us according to the measure of Christ’s gift.


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A Few Words Of The year

It seems like there have been a few different words that have become a theme in my life. One started about a year ago. The word “sovereign“. God lead me this past year to the Village Church in Dallas. Sovereign is a word that I feel like is used a lot there. Whether the actual word is used or just a description/story that if summed up in one word it would be sovereign. Not only that but I my friend Jake, who all this year (whether he knew it or not) always seemed to remind me that no matter what God is sovereign.

The same friend along with Matt Chandler through his book “The Explicit Gospel” taught me about the phrase “Soli Deo Gloria“. It means “glory to God alone”. At first it was just a really cool Latin phrase that yes, had meaning but not like it does now.  The more I dwelt upon the phrase and the more I grew in my walk with the Lord this year the more this phrase became real and close to my heart. Soli Deo Gloria, Soli Deo Gloria, Soli Deo Gloria………. every time I say it, it gets rooted deeper in my heart. As I grew this year, each moment that went by this phrase ringed in my heart. It is really true. No matter what happens, whether I have friends and family or not, no matter what grades I make, no matter what I do, my very breath, all of me, and all of life itself is to ring Soli Deo Gloria. My whole life! It’s purpose is Soli Deo Gloria! 

The next phrase I actually learned last week. The phrase is Deo Volente. It means “Lord willing”. I leaned it from my friend Matt Hamilton. He is the youth pastor at my church in Weatherford.  How much this whole thing with my head has made me realize that everything I plan and dream of is honestly Deo Volente. All of it! My every second of life. I’ll go to the store………… Deo Volente. I’ll see my friends tomorrow…………..Deo Volente. I’ll lie down in my bed and sleep tonight ………….Deo Volente. I’ll continue to breathe ……………….Deo Volente. 

Everything I do will be done Lord willing! It’s quite wonderful and stress relieving when life is seen that way. Does that mean we quit trying because   “Deo Volente” it will happen regardless? By no means!!!! The Lord uses us to accomplish His will. Trust me you want Him to use you! Can He make things happen on His own? Of course! He is God! But is it incredibly glorifying to Him to use His children? So much!

The last phrase I learned May 18th, 2013. My friend Amanda gave me a book by Elisabeth Elliot. In the first few pages she uses the phrase “Negligent Trust”. It means to trust God despite reason. Negligence is ignoring human reason. Legitimately the definition is “failure to exercise the care toward others which a reasonable or prudent person would do in the circumstances”. In life we have to have a “negligent trust” in God. We have to look at circumstances that seem impossible and say, “yes humanly this cannot be done but God can do this!” God defies human reason! If you didn’t already know, He is all-powerful! He raises the dead to life. He turns water to wine. Heals the sick. He even can change someone’s eternal destination! So ya, He Himself defies reason. Side Note: Love defies reason. God is love. Therefore, God defies reason.

So there we go with my post of the day! Jesus is really cool! You should definitely get to know Him! He will change your life! I know He has changed mine! Soli Deo Gloria!

Until next time, Doe Volente!